Halt, Pause, Rest... Hiatus?

[Tech Wilson]

I don't quite like the word hiatus so I tried to find a better word. It didn't work out all that well.

I really don't see why this is a big deal or absence thread worthy. No one has threads with me anyways pretty much. At least not ones I ever get to reply to. But, threads or no threads, I'm probably not going to RP for awhile. Not in threads and probably not much in IC either. Maybe now and then. Though, depending on who's in IC that would RP with me and who isn't, that might not happen much either. I probably won't talk in the chatbox for awhile either. I don't know how long this is lasting. A few days. A week or two. We shall see. Hopefully I don't make the decision I've been thinking about of leaving for far longer than even that. No, I don't really have much of a reason. I just need to get away. I'm hoping that it can make me or other people happy for awhile. Other than that, reasons are my own. I should probably do homework while I'm not here, but I'll probably not even do that. I'll finish my profiles during Hiatus most likely and appear to post them, but that might be just is it. No, I probably will not be on an IM of any sort to be contacted. And, if I am, you'll never know. I'm ninja like that. I love invisible appearing offline choice. But... ah... yea. I think this is best.

- Espionage Akero
- Xerxes Break
- Techolatlallatzin Xiaolan
- Rudolf Akero
- Joshua Akero
- Charlie Walker
- Izaya Orihara

[Dustin]

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Please, don't break our promise. I Swear, if you break our promise I will not be able to be the same. Stop it. I'm not sure what is going on, but stop it. DO you know how much it hurts to NOT have you here? Do you know how much it hurt back when I thought you hated me, to avoid you cause I didn't want to upset you...it killed me. Cause you're a friend, one of my closest. I love you, so much babe. You are one of the first friends on here, and you have always been able to make me smile. Everyone here loves you to death, it's not the same without you.

I'm a bitch, but I love you...what you are doing is childish. Something is wrong, and instead of telling us you keep it inside nad let is fester up. We worry, alot. I remember one time you came to me with an issue, and I was so damn happy, there isn't words for it. I was so damn happy to know that you trusted me enough to talk to me on an issue. I love you so much hun, my time here at LC would not be the same without you. Almost all of my LC memories involve you and last summer would have not been as wonderful as it was without you being apart of it.

You get sad easily, you are emotionally tied with your characters, stubborn, sweet, kind, loving, funny, friendly, so damn cute and when I'm down, you always can easily pick me up. Babe, you are one of the best friends I have here...and I love you like family. On here, you are my family. Little carly, that sweet baby that I want to hold and never let go.

I don't know what's going on, but you better damn tell me, or Maya or SOMEONE because we all love you, we care and we are hurting when you are hurting silently. Please, let us in. It's selfish to keep things to yourself when all of us are pushing so hard to help you. Trust us baby, we're your family here...we're your friends. We love you, so damn much. Please trust us, just open up a bit. Let us help you. We will never hurt you, we never want to hurt you.

And I swear to god, if you quit, if you break our promise there isn't words to describe how I will cry. I wanted to leave many times for many reasons...but in truth, it was that sweet promise back then that helped me realize I have friends here, I have people who care and love me. I learned to open up, be more of myself and these days, I've never been able to smile more then now. It's thanks to you, to everyone at LC. So don't you dare quit. If you do, I will find you and beg you to come back. Do not make me beg...I hate begging. But for you I will. I love you, I love you so much. Please, don't leave LC, don't leave me, don't leave us. We want you here, we WANT YOU HERE. So please...please don't go> Please?

If there is anything I can do, tell me. Tell me right now. I love you baby...Please, don't leave. It's not home when one of our sisters is gone. Please...Plase don't leave me, don't leave us, don't leave your LC family. Please.

I love you. Forever.
Thank you for being such an amazing friend, thank you for helping me to smile, to have the most amazing summer ever and to learn what it means to have people who care. Thank you. You're amazing.

- Destiny. The one who molested you from day one.

[Tech Wilson]

First, this is a Hiatus. Not an "I'm leaving forever." Just for a week or two.

Second, I have told someone what's wrong. I told Maya yesterday. I send her a three hundred or so word message on AIM explaining what was wrong and I know she got the message because, if she hadn't, she wouldn't have been worrying over me yesterday.

Third, I very well can't tell you guys what's wrong. You staff made the cbox rules, didn't you? It says "no complaining/ranting." When you break rules, it gets you banned. It works that way for websites. So, if you have rules on a cbox, then they would have to be there because you don't want the people doing that and, if they did enough times, you're supposed to ban them. If you don't ban people for rule breaking, they're going to break rules every now and then, knowing that they'll just get yelled at for it and nothing more. If I were to explain what's been making me unhappy, it would be a huge complaining rant bigger than anything you could imagine. Therefore I clearly can't say what's wrong. And, even if I did, a large portion of what's making me happy has to do with this site. When something makes you unhappy, you can either fix it or stay away for awhile. I don't know how to fix any of it. It doesn't seem fixable no matter how hard I try and beg. Not to mention I'm too shy to fix a lot of it. So the only answer is to stay away from what's making me unhappy. Which is why I'm taking a break from this place. Homework is also making me unhappy, but staying away from that results in failure of school, which means no college, which would then lead to a very disappointed and depressed mother because I won't get a good job. I am also making myself unhappy. I could attempt avoiding myself, but I've never seen it be possible. So I'm just going to spend a long time probably forcing myself to do homework and drowning myself away in Final Fantasy VII because that game makes me happy. Video games can do very little wrong. Sure, they kill you sometimes, but then you can start over. When something happens that you don't like, you can load from the last safe point. In real life, you can't do that. You just have to suck it up and deal with it and move on in life. Not to mention that you don't have to worry about video games hating you, saying no, ignoring you or making you feel like a total bitch. So I think they're a pretty good option for a happy place and way to spend time.

[Ernst Robel]

This won't be long, because frankly, I don't have the patience to write something clever, or comforting, with paragraphs and the pretty thoughts all in a row. Maybe a good friend is supposed to. I obviously don't know what being a good friend entails anymore.

I will say this, though. What part of 'we love you' don't you understand? What part of the fact that I LOVE YOU isn't getting through your head? I wouldn't care if your rant was so long it needed an appendix and three indexes jus to keep it straight, and I highly doubt anybody here would care, either. That's it. That's the whole POINT. Listening. We listen because we actually want to know. And if we ourselves are doing the hurting? Well, then we'll try and fix it for you. Because we fucking CARE. But right now, you haven't given us much to listen to. There isn't much to go on.

So we'll see you soon, hopefully. We'll miss you. We'll hope you'll return. Some of us may even BEG and PRAY that you'll be back soon.

And I'm still listening. I just wish I could hear more than static.

[Tech Wilson]

Maya, you know that there's a person on this site who has a special talent of making me feel like the biggest bitch on the planet. If they would just keep their mouth shut around me, I probably wouldn't have posted this thread at all. They're part of the reason I want to get away from this place because I don't need people pointing out to me that I can be an ultimate bitch. I know you love me. I know a couple others here love me too. I know this. And, Maya, you must not be listening well enough because I tell you more than I tell anyone else in the whole world. There's very little I don't tell you. I tell you far more than you tell me or than anyone else tells me. People don't tell me anything and I dare to spit out all these horrible things that are going on with me. I use to. But, you see, I like helping people more than I like being helped. I hate when people help me and I can't help them. So if people aren't going to tell me what's wrong with them, I don't see why I should be telling them what's wrong with me. Nothing that happens to me is bad anyways. It's no big deal. It's nothing I can't deal with on my own.